Leo

Alas, the two things  I used to do so well!

It's like my body's forgotten the reason for sleep - when my head hits that pillow at night, I am genuinely tired and have no problems dropping off, it's just that then it's a bit of a gamble as to how long I can stay that way! The second my eyes open after that, that's it - I have to be up, whether it's been one hour or ten. Grrr :(

And food - this one's really weird, it's kinda crept up on me too. I'm almost embarrased to say (so shhh) that “I seem to have lost interest in food”. Now, you have to realise (as most of you will), that's like an alcoholics anonymous statement foor me to be making. I must clarify, however - I am still very much interested in 'Food' (you only have to see the piles of cookery books and scribbled meal plans scattered on my floor right now), it's just that I'm just quite indifferent about eating the stuff!

Eeeek! Ok, I've just read that back and I think I'm gonna cry!

Can you believe it - last night I had a craving for… 

(wait for it) …

Salad.

End of days.

Well. hello. I'm about to send out an email to tell you to come here so it makes sense for me to greet you when you arrive! Obviously, it's all a bit of a work in prgress but please take a look around - my entries (i've been writing to nobody for the past couple of weeks!) start at the bottom in date order and the other pages can be found by clicking on the tabs in the top right. Please make use of any links on my links page if you're thinking of buying through one of the sites listed, and if you get stuck on a page at any time, click on the word 'Leo' in the top left to bring you home.

Think that's it. Love to you all xxx

Well, it's official, I'm now most definitely an insomniac! Thank god (small 'g') I have this thing to mess about with - I'd be going insane if I didn't! Might have to do something crazy like sit and read a book!

So, just to let y'all know that i'm still feeling proper bo. Lots of nice stuff happening still (mostly at the cost of our poor wallets, but hey, cliche coming up: “You only live once”!), and things are getting sorted out as best they can be. My piles of forms to fill in and lists of phonecalls to make are slowly going down and I finally got the word from work which means I don't have to worry about my rent etc (always a bonus).

Hmm… Friday, the new bed came - all very exciting, looks great and feels amazing. I know my lack of sleep serves no advert but I really can't recommend these people enough - Warren Evans in Camden, we love you!!!

So then the weekend was pretty jam-packed with seeing people and being generally more sociable than I've been in the past 6 months! Got some fresh air courtesy of the City Farm on Saturday, then some well executed retail therapy for all the family thanks to Canary Wharf. Sunday, I swam in the sea at Southend, in addition to consuming copious amounts of fish and chips and ice cream Went to see Sinatra at the Palladium tonight - what a surprise, it was completely amazing - go see it if you can! 

So, as you can see, all's still good. I await the hitting of the fan ever more tentatively.

I'd like to take this opportunity (yes, really) to say a great big huge thankyou to absolutely everyone who I've seen and shared time with over the past three weeks. I wish I could name names and list things that we've done but there's just been so much going on! That is absolutely everyone, including and especially my family and Andy (he'll hate me for that), without whom I'd be lost. You've all been completely fantastic and made me feel so special, yet not 'special', if you know what I mean. Which is so important - please keep it up.

I love you guys! xxx

Well, here's the big one. Actually went extremely well - not the nightmare I'd anticipated at all (well, not physically anyway). After a couple of hours of waiting around, which is excellent in my experience of the NHS, and in a comfy chair to boot, I finally received my chug-load of toxic chemicals and felt surprisingly little after effects. Bit of nausea and a bad but quick headache and that was that. Lunch.

Of course, it wasn't that easy though was it? After the treatment, my consultant gave me the news about my new diagnosis. Officially, I have a very rare type of cancer which is known as Histiocytic Sarcoma. I can't really tell you much about it as I'm yet to find out more - seems it's so rare, there really isn't much to go on. Anyway, needless to say this has put somewhat of a downer on things recently and kinda taken the breeziness out of me a little. But not too much - I still have sushi

So that was thursday, thought I'd bring you up to date x

I know I'm slacking already given that I'm only just writing my second post, but I'm sleepless again so the fact that it's taken me this long is a good sign that I'm a least getting enough zeds! Funny day, really - I had a meeting about work that turned out to be pretty inconclusive (I await the golden phonecall tomorrow), then had a great free haircut with some very yummy coffee by a lovely girl in Kensington (think I may have found someone to stick with at last - will definitely go back when I next have hair!), did some 'research' into headscarves while over that way (all good by the way), then got home to find that the flat had flooded

Anyway, they say bad luck comes in threes and I must say I haven't been holding my breath - It all started when the Magster went missing while Andy was in Italy, then the Lymphoma thing, now this. Poor Mags, it's her I feel sorry for the most - she doesn't understand what's going on! She's with me now, sleeping noisily on the kitchen table, very offput by the lack of dry places to sit, threatening cat flu or something else expensive if the situation doesn't improve!

So, the big day draws nearer - Thursday is Chemo day so we just have to wait and see how it hits me really. In the meantime, I'll do some work to this site (promise!), and put some ads and pictures up - tart it up a bit. You'll be sick of hearing me tell you but I'll start now: If you ever intend to buy something online that can be done throught the links on this site… do it!!! That way I get some pennies to fund fun things like taxis from hospital and maybe the occasional sushi. Thankyou - love you all xxx

Well hello, here's my first entry -  I can't actually believe I'm starting a blog as I've always said they're for people with FAR too much time on their hands! Anyway, as fate would have it I find myself now up in the wee small hours most days with little to do in the flat to a) keep me busy enough to satisfy my racing mind but also b) quiet enough so poor Andy can keep snoozing! So, here it is - hope there'll be a little bit of something for everyone, and I'll get a chance to exercise some of those web management skills - probably about time I started working on my own site rather than other people's! :)